Mid-Autumn Festival

>_< I know that Mooncake or Mid-Autumn Festival has already passed like one week ago but because I'm lazy so I didn't post these poems as I promised Ms.Low on time. Hehe sorry I'm not a poetry person but I managed to find this. If u read Chinese literature before sure u'll be familiar with these names and poetry. Well u know that there're many stories behind this festival like Jade Rabbit, Chang-er bla bla I also not sure. In the same time, other countries like Korea, Japan and Indonesia too celebrate the festival but Korea is Chuseok Festival, Anyway u always see these two poems appear in classical dramas and the 2nd one even so famous that it has turned into a song by Faye Wong.

静夜思

床前明月光
疑是地上霜
举头望明月
低头思故乡
－李白 (701-762)

Longing in the Silent Night

Bright moonlight before my bed
Wonder if it's hoar-frost on the ground
Lift my head to gaze the moon bright
Lower my head and picture my home
-Li Bai

水調歌頭【宋】蘇東坡

明月幾時有, 把酒問青天.
不知天上宮闕, 今昔是何年?
我欲乘風歸去, 有恐瓊樓玉宇, 高處不勝寒.
起舞弄清影, 何似在人間.
轉朱閣, 低綺戶, 照無眠.
不應有恨, 何事長向別時圓?
人有悲歡離合, 月有陰晴陽缺, 此事古難全.
但願人長久, 千裏共嬋娟.

Song Prose: A Song Of Mid-Autumn-Mellow melody
Thinking of You (Song Dynasty 1076Y) Su Tung Po

When will the moon be bright?
With a cup of wine in my hand, I ask the clear blue sky.
Not knowing what season it would be in the heavens on this night.
I'd like to ride the wind to fly home.
Yet I fear the crystal and jade mansions are much too high and cold for me.
Dancing with my moon-lit shadow
It does not seem like the human world
The moon rounds the red mansion Stoops to silk-pad doors
Shines upon the sleepless Bearing no grudge
Why does the moon tend to be full when people are apart?
People may have sorrow or joy, be near or far apart
The moon may be dim or bright, wax or wane
This has been going on since the beginning of time
May we all be blessed with longevity though far apart, we are still able to share the beauty of the moon together.

자장면。。。炸酱面来了^^

期末考结束了 假期也过了一半
最近我们的部落格好像都没什么动静
总是要我们的“大佬”动笔 实在是有点过意不去
而且我现在是处于空闲状态 不交出一两篇东西
“大佬”一定会骂我的 哈哈 开玩笑

闲来无事，说吃我蛮在行，就说说这道美食吧
虽然本人没吃过，但总觉得应该很美味
喜爱看韩剧的人应该注意到它
不常看韩剧的应该也会发现到
它就是。。。jang!jang!~~~炸酱面

还记得吗？
梦幻情侣的罗桑实最爱配小米酒一起吃
宫S李煦打工的“宫”卖的就是炸酱面
魔女幼熙中戊龙的爸爸最拿手是炸酱面
还有咖啡王子的恩灿也很爱它
还有오빠们，在中오빠还要配腌萝卜的 呵呵
还有还有。。。。。。
*****太多了*****


罗桑实的大爱

恩灿也很爱哦

炸酱面外送，是永城公送来的哦

虽然卖相不算很好 黑黑的 但韩剧中人人都吃得津津有味
感觉上它似乎还带有一种令人回味无穷的滋味
浅黄色的面条 应该是手工拉面 再铺上黑黑的炸酱 其中的配料不太清楚
大概是肉碎和蔬菜之类吧
吃前要先搅拌均匀 然后大口大口的吃 之后脸上就会露出开心和满足的表情
这 就是炸酱面给我的印象

其实卖相也不错啊。。。还铺上了黄瓜丝

有肉碎、香菇、洋葱，好像还有萝卜

拌一拌，可以开动了！

突然觉得自己好像在写美食专栏
写得我自己都觉得有点饿了。。。
因为没有真正尝过，所以不能很明确地说出它的味道
但也因为没有尝过，让我对它的味道充满了想象
是比较甜？还是比较咸？咸中带点辣吗？还是甜中带辣？
它很普通 算不上是什么顶级食品
但是透过它 我感受到了许多温馨与欢乐
即使只是透过那一层电视屏幕

它或许是一样到处都能找到的食物
在本地大概也能找到
但我最最最想的是。。。亲自到韩国去尝尝
真正的韩式炸酱面

期待^^ 期待^^

~韩国原产的真味炸酱，他们称作“春酱”，由黑豆做成，所以黑黑的~ 不行 越写越饿了。。。
最后最后~~再附上网上检索到的
是“泡面式”的炸酱面哦。。超想吃的



完成了，但还是不知道自己为什么要写这篇东西。。。。。。

*图片的位置可能有点怪怪的，没办法，本人是电脑白痴*

Happy Birthday Ms.Cheng!!!

Happy 21st Birthday Cheng Pui Mun!!!

Haha so sorry I post very very late greeting. Thought wished u already on your big day but it just like missing something if I don't post on blog because I posted for everyone. And u're the last one which means the youngest among us. :( So young so good not like me zoom early year birthday passed by like wind. Hehe well because I myself have many brothers and sisters so I never thought others as like "god-sister" or "god-brother" even they're much younger or older than me, it just not my thing. Usually in the surface name of "friend", I treat them either as senior, junior or acquaintance or classmates but "friend" to me is a person who really know each other as "who we are". To me, friend could be someone closer to "me" than family though we aren't blood-related because I'm a person who rather confide in my friend not family members. Of course family is equally important to me but just u know there're issues u share with your kinship while there're different things u share with your friend. So I don't simply address people as friend but u're a friend a true friend. Maybe we still have a lot to learn about each other but we're closer compared to stranger that simply drop a hi and walk away right right right? No? Ohh u broke my heart if u don't think so hahaha. Ok just kidding.

Hehe u're really lucky that u have a very long lasting childhood friend till now and in the future. It's really precious. Not everyone has the same opportunity so value it. Ok it such a miracle though I came late in your life but we still able to build a close friendship within a short 2 years or longer. Haha so the point is not the time length but how our heart connect. Woohoo is this what u always say the so called "timing and fate"? Keke hmm really never had I imagined I can be so close to 六人行 even closer to those closest previous friends. The first person that flash in my mind would be 六人行 if I got any fun plan or difficulties. Maybe I couldn't blurt out my troubles straight forwardly but whenever I wanna talk, u guys are the 1st I seek. Some of u sure aware I sometimes like to send meaningless sms but those times are when I need somebody to talk to or I just happy to sms u. This bond just occur naturally unconciously thats why I often can't remember how we started to shorten the distance between us.

Somehow, we contact each other lesser and lesser lately. Hmm we both so poor don't want reload haha and msn I lazy sign in too, no one in msn or only me didn't log in hehe. Haha maybe since u don't need english already and so busy so no find me anymore. Anyway Happy Birthday Ohh my dear friend~ Aish no music or video for u because this stupid blog don't produce sound hehe 真不好意思 wakakaka~ Ohh Happy Mooncake festival ohh!!!

*Recently my mind undergoes lots of changes... Wake up!!! Work diligently to change habits and change myself!!!

Actually there're reasons why I urge u to attend the "life lesson" because there're mission to complete but most importantly so u can change to better. I'm not saying u're bad now but if u're given a chance to improve, why not? Treat it as learning something new. There're so much I can't reveal and explain much unless u come to learn the lesson yourself because if I tell u now, u might think I'm ridiculous and disbelieve it. Have u guys ever wonder why there are so much disasters nowadays? Tsunami? Earthquake in Malaysia? How freaky was that!!! Earthquake in Sichuen, China where the largest Buddhist statue located at? H1N1 started in Mexico where the citizens not believe in God but worship any rocks they found in street? U might think ceh these all happened due to natural phenomenon or human-made artificial industrial effects and don't concern u since it all happened in other places but it actually a global issue. Have u ever wonder who is the creator of this world? I told 3 of u already but I haven't introduce it to another two for we didn't meet. Somehow I really hope u guys will go but see how then...

Ohh back to birthday. Haha since we couldn't celebrate with u, let me sing a birthday song for u
Happy Birthday to u~ Happy Birthday to u~ Happy Birthday to Cheng Pui Mun~ Happy Birthday to u~ Woohooo u want cake? Nah go get a mooncake and lit a candle on it... tada haha make a wish and blow it~

生日快乐。。。雯

生日快乐。。。。。。
终于 终于 我们都21岁了
屈指一算 这是我们认识的第十五个年头了
还好你没有对我感到厌倦 哈哈
十五年 说长不长 说短不短
但对我而言已经是很可贵了

仔细想想 自己身边的朋友好像一直都在变动
但唯有你 依然与我并肩而行
当然 其中免不了有争吵的时候
可是我们的友情还是维持到了现在
而且还多了“六人行”

想起以前常常埋怨身边朋友只有两三个
可是 随着年龄的增长 自己慢慢长大
才深深体会到
朋友 真心对待你的 即使只有一个
那就很足够了

没什么东西要说了
以我们的友情 不说你也明白啦
我想真正的朋友或许就是这样吧
不需要多说什么 彼此心里已明白
在一起就算不说话 也不会不自在或觉得尴尬
对吗？

虽然我不能达成我们当初的愿望
就是一起进入国立大学
但是我们依然怀着自己的梦想前进
一起努力向前冲吧。。。

happy birthday to you~~~
may all your dream come true~~~

Healthy Brain

Exercise is essential to promote a healthy brain and increase blood flow to brain. When u move, the exercise will stimulate the brain to release neurotransmitters; dopamine hormone that controls pleasure and exercise, serotanin that controls fear, stress, anxiety, etc and norepinephrine that controls antidepressant. Therefore, exercise is good to cure depression. Since the brain is the central of the body, a healthy brain means a healthy body.

Studies show that the childrens belong to those mothers who exercise during pregnancies will give birth to healthier and smarter kids than those mothers who don't exercise because the exercise helps to stimulate the brain developing of the feotus.

Our brain contains 1 trillion cells and ten thousand cells die a day as we age. Do u know that all of our body cells can regenerate and building new tissues everyday but only the brain cells don't regenerate but dying everyday so we need to protect the remaining cells well. Colouring is a better exercise compared to writing or drawing because this simple activity maintains the balance of the brain as it requires look, remember and think on how to paint, which needs the entire brain. This is very good brain exercise for old citizens.

*Notice that the "exercise" refers to physical body exercise as well as mental exercise.

credit to Mysteries of Human Body, KBS
:D Korean channels just provide the most entertaining and knowledgeable programmes

Beauty Tips II

Aha finally only the main point of this post.
“The 5-Step Skin Care Routine: Japanese and Korean women’s biggest beauty secret to flawless skin"

Skincare
Makeup should be an enhancement, not a cover-up agent. Everything starts with good skin and a good skincare regimen is essential to maintaining or obtaining good skin. As clich? as it sounds, beauty comes from within. Just because you splurge hundreds of dollars on brand name skin products does not guarantee you will look flawless. People with great skin often attribute it to a healthy diet, exercise, plenty of water and 8 hours of beauty sleep.

For sensitive skin, try to avoid products with excessive fragrance, alcohol and chemical sunscreen, as they tend to have adverse effects on your skin. Many Japanese skincare products nowadays contain no added fragrance, color additives and chemical sunscreen, and are excellent to use because of the exceptional quality and quick penetration to the skin.

The 5-step regime
Your typical beauty routine should consistently involve cleansing, toning and moisturizing your face. This is known as the basic 3-step routine. However, we learned that Korean and Japanese women who have the most beautiful skin in the world, use a 5 step routine. A trip to any Korean or Japanese cosmetics store can help you gain valuable insights to their rituals and beauty secrets, but we can share those secrets with you right here:

The 5 step regime consists of double-cleansing —> massage/mask* —> toning —> essence —> moisturizer

*masks are recommended for 1 - 2 times a week only unless directed. Most essence type masks are recommended to be applied AFTER toning unless otherwise stated.

Double Cleansing - Makeup Remover + Foam Wash
You should always take off all your makeup before you go to sleep. Raccoon eyes aside, makeup will clog pores while you sleep and you will end up with breakouts the next day, not to mention the imprint on your pillow. This is a common problem with teens in North America, as famous model Iman once said, they learn how to use makeup before they learn about proper skincare. Hence the premature aging and skin problems.

If you wear makeup, you would be pleasantly surprised at the concept of Cleansing Oil. The name sounds heavy, but cleansing oils are perhaps one of the greatest inventions in the beauty industry (by the Japanese). Instead of the two-phase makeup removers we use in North America, the Japanese and Korean women use cleansing oil to remove makeup - including waterproof mascara. It is a washable oil that is emulsified with water to quickly remove all makeup, grease and dirt. It removes all traces of makeup gently yet effectively as well as other types of pore clogging dirt while maintaining skin's natural sebum levels. You apply the cleansing oil on your face without wetting your face first and the makeup dissolves quickly and effortlessly, and rinses off in seconds without any oily feeling.

After you remove your makeup with cleansing oil/cream, use a gentle cleanser to cleanse your face. This will remove any residue the cleansing oil leaves behind (if any). Double cleansing is crucial to maintaining great skin since many people tend to break out and they think they are doing everything right, but turns out that they were using cleansers that do not clean thoroughly.

Massage
Facial massages are a secret to glowing skin. You could even use a gentle scrub. Because of skin damage from UV rays, dehydration and aging, the skin loses its elasticity - just like a balloon that gradually loses air. Also, young people or those with oily skin secrete excessive sebum that clogs the pores, making the skin susceptible to acne and irritations.

When you massage your face with a massage pack/cream, it is an exercise for your skin. Working deeply within the skin, it cleanses the embedded particles, improves blood circulation and relieves stress. By working deep within the skin, facial massages can stimulate the flow of oxygen and nutrients to improve the elasticity of your skin. Because of the massage, the skin temperature rises, opening the pores and the dirt embedded within the skin will be removed.Your skin looks visibly fresher, glowing and younger after a massage.

Incorporating massages into your beauty regimen at least 2- 3times a week will give you visible results.

A word of caution for those with acne or oily skin, massaging will agitate the oil glands and increase oil secretion. So refrain from massaging.

Facial Mask
Everyone can benefit from using a facial mask once or twice a week and it is an economical alternative to having a facial at the salon. For dry skin, a moisture boost once a week is a great relief; for oilier skin, a purifying mask can unclog pores and remove embedded dirt. For normal skin, it is a maintenance measures to keep your skin in top shape.

Facial masks cleanse from deep within the skin, improve blood circulation and improve skin renewal. They remove deeply embedded dirt which can cause acne, and stimulate oxygen flow to improve the elasticity of your skin. The skin is fair, smooth and firmer after and has a healthy glow. Unlike facial massages, facial masks should be done only 1 to 2 times a week after cleansing and preferably at night-time. (Excessive stimulation of the skin can cause skin discoloration)

Facial masks have many different types. They come in sheets (cloth or silk), clay, gel and cream. Each type is specific to its own purpose: sheet types are usually treatment essence to be absorbed onto skin; clay type is usually for oilier skin types to draw out dirt and impurities; gel or cream masks are usually for drier or more mature skin types to infuse moisture. Depending on your need and skin conditions, you can choose different types for each time. For example, when you are feeling stressed out and your skin looks dry or dull, an essence type sheet mask will do the trick. While most facial masks are applied after cleansing before toning, some essence sheet masks (they are considered essence, and hence are applied after toning) are applied after toning. Refer to product instructions for correct usage sequence.

Toners
There are people who think toners are useless, but toners are actually essential products as they remove dead skin cells and residue from cleansers, replenish your skin with moisture after cleansing, and make the absorption of any subsequently applied products easier and faster.One common mistake when choosing a toner is that people with oily skin often choose a strong astringent to try to “dry” out their skin.

However, this is a serious mistake as abrasive toners containing high levels of alcohol* often overdry your skin, which in turn promotes the secretion of even more sebum (your skin’s natural reaction), which makes your skin even oilier. Look for toners and astringents that are made without ethyl alcohol, rubbing alcohol or isopropyl alcohol. These ingredients are solvents that are extremely drying to the skin.

*Many skin whitening toners contain alcohol. This does not mean that they are bad or harsh on your skin, but most of the skin whitening ingredients need alcohol to penetrate into your skin. As long as it does not burn or sting your skin, alcohol is not always an enemy.

Essence
Essences or serums are very light liquid form treatments, usually concentrated, to correct skin problems. They penetrate deep into your skin whereas regular moisturizers only sit on top of skin. Essences provide much quicker results and visible differences than regular moisturizers.

Different essences serve different purposes. Applied after toners (or moisturizers, as some essences are to be used on top of moisturizers), essence and serums are quickly absorbed onto skin. For best results, wait 5 minutes after applying essences or serums before applying moisturizer to allow maximum absorption onto skin. Because of their concentrated affects, serums are generally more expensive.

Moisturizer
Whether you have oily skin or dry skin, you need to moisturize your face. If you have dehydrated combination/oily skin, choose an oil-free or water-based moisturizer to keep your skin hydrated. If you have dry skin, after applying a light moisturizer, you can also apply a richer cream to seal in the moisture.

Depending on your skin type and needs, there are many moisturizers available. If you are in need of skin whitening, choose a moisturizer with skin whitening properties (preferably used in conjunction with the same line of whitening products). Acne-prone skin should find a sebum controlling moisturizer that is light-textured and non oily. Remember, oily skin can be dehydrated too, even though it looks shiny (oil). When your skin is dry, it secretes more sebum to help protect your skin, so even oily skin will benefit from using a water-based moisturizer.

If you have blemishes and your skin is dry, moisturize your skin in the morning and at night with products that contain vegetable oils which are high in essential fatty acids. Essential fatty acids help to soften and hydrate the skin and they can also help soothe minor irritations. Vegetable oils that contain large amounts of essential fatty acids are: corn oil, sunflower seed oil, safflower oil, borage oil, blackcurrant seed oil and evening primrose oil. Mineral oil is derived from petroleum and does not contain anything that helps to nourish the skin.

Sources: (C)(R)Joseibi.com (http://www.joseibi.com/store/view_article.asp?idArticle=21)”
Credit: http://beauty-tricks.com/beautyblog/pg=57

Sunblock
UV A and UV B
There are two types of UV rays which we need to protect ourselves from. UV B has a shorter wave length and causes burning (generates melanin which causes you to get darker & freckles to pop up). UV A has a longer wave length and penetrates deep within the skin’s collagen and elastin layer and causes aging and fine lines.

SPF – sun protection factor against UV B

SPF 22 means you get to spend 22 times longer under the sun (than which you would without protection from UV B) before you start burning. Example: If you have fair skin and it takes you 20 minutes in the hot sun to get a sun burn. With SPF 22, you get to spend 440 minutes (22 x 20) in the sun before you start burning.

PA - protects against UV A
PA+ minimum UV A protection
PA++ average UV A protection
PA+++ very high UV A protection

*I once told Ms.Cheng that the higher spf the better. Sorry I need to recorrect something. It's true but it only apply to other countries like those four-seasoned countries that receive extreme sunshine. I guess I heard that Asia people like Malaysia are only suitable to apply maximum SPF 25 or below SPF 30 or somewhere around that. SPF 50 is not suitable for us because it will be too "heavy".

Using Lots Of Whitening Products
Women in Korea use whitening products to combat skin pigmentation problems due to hormone imbalance especially during pregnancy. Pigmentation is prone to appear below the eyes, on the upper cheeks. To avoid developing huge freckle like marks on your face during pregnancy, use lots of whitening products.

Detailed Makeup Steps
Korean women apply 17 – 18 products every morning before stepping out of the house! Are you a Korean woman? Do you do this? Anyway, here is the make-up routine of a typical Korean woman who wants to portray having a flawless complexion. There are eleven steps!

1.Preparation: Primer + make-up base (corrects your skin tone)
2.Foundation
3.Conceal imperfection (concealer)
4.Setting: Set and fix foundation with powder or pact (The pact is now the Korean woman’s favourite touch-up item)
5.Highlighting: Enhance vitality with make-up Brightener
6.Eye brow
7.Eye shadow
8.Eyeliner
9.Mascara
10.Lip
11.Blusher

Facts
1. The latest foundation or powder are formulated with "light reflecting properties" or "light infusion technology" or "micro mirror function" so it'll reflect light from any angle and correct uneven skin tone resulting a illuminating glowing skin. If u don't know how to choose your suitable color foundation or powder, this function will help u adjust according to your most natural skin color.

2. Nanotechnology is a modern technology to create the particles as micro as nano size so the skincare products can penetrate deeply into the skin.

3. Blemish Balm cream or BB cream is so popular among Korea and Japan nowadays. Initially it's created originally from Germany for dermalogist usage to treat scars or plastic surgery, etc. Then now it's used in cosmetic for multi-functions as foundation, primer base, hydrating, correcting uneven tone, conceal imperfections, whitening, anti-oxidant, control sebum, etc, like sometimes 10 in 1, a make-up product that doesn't cause damage to the skin like usual make up products but more like a skin care product.

4. Have u ever wonder how to use eyeshadows? U see a set of color in compact, single color in a cube or various colors in a big pallete, but what the difference? If you're expert like any make up artist on how to choose and blend the colors then u might buy a big pallete of eyeshadow or single eyeshadow cube so u can freely mix all the colors together. However, if you're a beginner or a color criminal have no good idea how to mix the right colors together, just buy the set of colors in compact since it already arranged to guide u and the colors are ensured to be compatible with each other. *The lightest color is to highlight and paint the larger part of the eyelid while the deeper the color, it used to paint in narrower part and nearer to the eye lines.

5. Do u know the different types of mascara brush will create different kinds of effect? Lush, long or volume.

6. The best way to apply skin care products and foundation/powder on face is by "pap pap pap" on face then only spread it evenly with fingers.

Hmm there's lot to learn and what I post here is only some of the basic. O_o too much steps. Hmm to have a healthy skin, the most important are hygiene and balanced diet and healthy lifestyle like drink lots of water, eat vege and fruits, exercise, stress-free, avoid fried and spicy food, bla bla. Be healthy from inside out then your skin will become beautiful. When skin become beautiful originally, we need no use so much make up products to cover up our imperfections. Right? oho

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Beauty Tips I

Hehe annyeong haseyo~ I just suddenly get aspired to post this up after my comeback from a church event in Kl last Saturday. Hehe damn touched and tired from the high spirited dancing and singing, crying, meeting once again my Korean songsaengnim since so long, long journey, hehe gaining new knowledges from listening to a senior's story telling about his experiences in bus. XDDD The camera flashes nonstop throughout the whole trip catching memories as much as possible. XDDD Then the whole bus turned into a battlefield when all the girls went around having their make up done. Anyway it seems like still lot of young ladies don't know the basic steps of skin care and make up even some knew how to paint their face already. Most of u might have known but no harm done when u learn again thoroughly and confirm if your methods are right or wrong. :D Haha I knew the steps theoritically but never tried it practically before so a kind big sis helped me to do a very light make up. :D Haha I'm lazy to do so although I knew the basic steps of skin care... that's why so many products sitting still collecting dust in my room.

Hmm... firstly, I want to share something I know with u. Siew Han last time asked me why I buy "make up remover" when I didn't make up daily. The reason is that liquid is not a make up remover but it still effective to be used as one and it's a water-based cleanser. There're many other "pre-cleansing" products like cleansing oil or lotion and some even with "double layer oil and water" to remove water resistant cosmetics. It's better if we do double cleansing because mere usual facial cleanser is not enough to deeply remove all the dirt inside our pores. If u're someone who use toner or u have no idea how clean your face is, u can see the proof that the cotton pad wipe off some dirt from your face when u apply toner even after face wash. Our skin is exposed to invisible dirt everyday no matter we make up or not because of the polluted air surrounded us, open air full of fine particles while indoor air especially in air-cond rooms and public transports is full of germs since the bacteria always stay inside and can't go anywhere so the pre-cleansing lotion is to ensure our skin really clean.

Secondly, the products on market nowadays are either synthetic, natural or half natural which the active ingredients usually made with plants or botanical ingredients. Natural is always the best and it becomes more popular and popular nowadays such as Body Shop, The Natural Source, Skin Food, Elianto, Face Shop, Etude House, L'occitane, Origins, Evelyn & Crab, etc etc. Well I'm not saying that products like Loreal, Chanel, Clinique, Biotherm, Estee Lauder, Lancome, SKII, Shiseido, Kose, and many other expensive products not good but just I think natural products are more friendly to skin and cheaper. I really feel Australia and Korean products are better since they more natural and I personally prefer Australia products. It's just my opinion maybe I'm wrong since many experts use branded products so they must have their own advantages. Whatever it is, a product that is free from alcohol, preservative, mineral oil, synthetic fragrance, artificial coloring, petrochemical cleansers, silicones, propylene glycol, sulfates, ethoxylates, parabens, DEA (MEA, TEA), will make a good and skin-friendly product. It just on the safe side so people with sensitive skin need no worry that the products would cause breakout. Actually we often heard alcohol is not good for skin but experts say alcohol can kill germs, provide cooling sensation and it's harmless if it's usage is within certain concentration therefore products with printed alcohol ingredients are absolutely safe. Whereas it's advisable to not use products with whitening properties since it might not compatible with your skin but it depends, use natural products. My view is if your skin is healthy, u will develop a bright healthy glowing complexion naturally. Mineral oils may clog your pores. Parabens like metylparaben and butylparaben usually included in the natural products to preserve the natural ingredients. Haha u guys will be lazy to look over the ingredients also so lalala~ Sometimes, u may grow suspicious if some products with certain active ingredients effective or not. They're scientically proven but maybe natural products take longer time or what I'm not so sure. Oh yeah if u see a "cleo award sticker" when u choose product then the product is definitely good because it's voted as one of the best products among consumers. Ahh, do u know what's the difference between gel, lotion and cream? They each construct of different thickness of textures. Gel is for very oily skin, lotion is for oily skin and cream is for dry skin. Of course normal skin can use any one of those. However, I think lotion is the best choice since if u don't know your type of skin and cream is too oily and heavy for skin and gel might not enough especially we live under the hot and humid weather. Don't misunderstand oily skin as hydrated skin. Remember skin secrete natural oil to overcome dryness. So u must use moisturizers to prevent skin dehydration and visible facial pores. Again u could only have facial wash twice or maximum thrice a day because the more u wash, your skin natural moisture will be swept away and more oil will be secreted.

Thirdly, have u ever concern about water temperature when u shower, wash face and hair? Hot water will dry out and burn your skin and scalp and these will stimulate your skin natural reaction to secrete more oil to overcome the dryness. Do u know bathing is better than shower? Hehe u must wonder ehh bathing and shower not the same? Bathing is more like u slowly soaking in the water and wash slowly while shower is u wash under running water. U see the more u wash, your skin pores open up and the running water keeps flowing your skin moisture away. It's the same apply to your skin and face after shower, u don't rub your skin with towel but gently dab it so the moisture remain and u won't carelessly damage your skin texture. If the water is too cool, the pore won't open up to wash away impurities so no, it can't do also. A too cool water will also stimulate an oily scalp to secrete more oil. Thus, a too hot and cool water is and enemy for oily scalp and hair. Eventually, the best temperature would be warm water!!! Woohoo!!! Well well it says like this but sometimes we just use whatever water temperature is available aren't we? Boo~ Haha hmm the same concept, do u know drink so much soft drinks can dry out your throats too? Ohh and do u know the length of hair after 15cm depends on outside nutrients while the hair within 15cm from your scalp depends on the nutrients absorb from your blood? So so now u know where should u apply those treatment products like hair mask and conditioner on hehe. Combing hair and blowing dry hair in fact help to increase blood circulation and restore the hair system but be careful to use products to protect your hair shafts since too much heat from hair dryer can damage your hair.

Stand Strong!!!

Whoa this blog is molding haha because no one bothers to touch it for awhile now. I'm busy with continuous activities happening. Siew Han with her heap up studies assignments and final exams... Jia you!!! Others I have no idea since we didn't contact each other. Hmm... ok Ms.Cheng uni line just sucks up don't let her load the blog maybe the blog hates her or what haha. Yo other guys, May San busy working so much? Ah Fen can't online as much as us for she haven't buy herself a laptop. Finally our founder of this blog, Ms.Moo yo are u too busy or u have nothing to post? Whatever~

First of all, I'm really thankful and feel full of gratitudes towards those who always support and giving me advises or just talking is enough for me that helping me building analysis and confidence which lead me to my final decision in my study choices. *Heave a relief sigh* Finally finally!!! I always ask myself why think so much? why can't I decide what course I want? why be afraid to face upcoming challenges? why not just be bold and receive everything that might encounter in the future with positive attitude? why worry about things that I don't know? why not live in the present and live in the future when what I do today will reveal the me of tomorrow? why not try my very best now so I won't looking back with regrets when I reminisce the past in my future? I'm so ashame of myself when I think about my past when I failed to achieve the top results because of my own laziness and cowardness to try the best as I can... there're parts of it that I'm glad it occured while there're parts of it that I regret so much because they're what makes myself today. During the progress I throw away negative thoughts like inferiority one by one. I ever wondered, if I didn't fall out of studies and continue to maintain my efforts which brought me the position top 2 among all other students, will I hesitate here now? will I be hanging around in Form 6 and meet a group of good friends? will I join the church and learn new warm friends and seniors? will I learn Korean? will I learn English and meet a very cute lovely junior and teacher? will I get scholarship and study science and not preferring art in top university? will I now graduate already earlier than my other friends? will I love DBSK? will I further studies in Japan now if I'm brave to take the foreign interview last time during the end of Form 5? So I think sometimes fate really happens while other times no. There're lots of things or habits passed by like a phase such as comics, animes, role-playing games, online chatting with oversea strangers, etc etc. Last time I just addicted so much to all these hobbies that I ignored my studies and now it all almost stopped already although they still remain but not as much as last time. As time goes on, I met new people and discover other new entertainments. Haha I really envy those who boldly follow their own heart to pursue their favourite dream and face everything with a happy mood. I hope I can be brave to begin my 1st step to walk on my chosen path. "Always look on the bright side. Life is too short to regret."

Ok sometimes there're really many unpredicted things happen or it's going out of control. Last time I always judge certain people thinking "Aish isn't she so irrational because she can't do something balancely?" Afterwards I rather believe outsider gossip and misunderstood the said person's real thoughts and think it's the certain factor that bring bad influence. Then I just let it go and didn't ask the person. Later I get to know that I have no rights to judge others because I realize the said person knows clearly what they're doing and they're happy with it... just that they make people think otherwise all because of their failure in their own management. But now I understand it when the same situation occurs to me. Hmm something fishy here... does this occur to me to let me realize others' situation? 1st Sept was suppose my intake date but I really couldn't make up my mind to study which course, to study in which university or college. I'm a really laid back person, when I can't ensure my 1st step, I won't have the heart and mind to work hard for the next step. How could I do it when my heart trembling unsettled and under the condition of rushing? And some gave me advise "Calm down and don't rush since it been dragged so long already why not take the very remaining last time to think carefully so I don't regret over my decision, waste no time and money" while my mom and sis critic me "Mind got problem so long already but still couldn't make up my mind. Time is gold and it doesn't wait for people just flies away." Both also have own logics. Me also so scared and worried alot since wah all my friends almost graduate but I'm still here not moving a bit still at the same place didn't grow at all. I can't face my friends and relatives and answer them when they always chased after me asking "where u study? Yo u still here?". I can't even answer myself how could I reply them so I tend to runaway. Well money seems not to be a problem for my mom since it's my father who support my studies but I myself don't like "risk my money" although it's my father's hard earned money and maybe he rather spends on his mistress or what I don't care at all, maybe I'm too naive. TT_TT I seek advices from many people, always double check and keep thinking what I want but I myself also seems not understand myself. I can't help it because I'm not like others, I have no choice to enter public uni due to my results not enough and my financial status allow me to choose whatever course I desire so I'm such a lucky person given a chance to choose while some who's out there who have their own dream career but can't reach it because of financial problem. Unfortunately I'm such an idiot have a clouded mind and greedy. When I once made up my mind to study psycology, I borrowed book from other and try to study it, visited the higher education institutes and then I changed my mind again because of boredom and the very not nice environment that the university have to offer me made me have 2nd thoughts. As a results, I get confused again and considered that other choices might be better. Haha see if other people must think "aish can study still not satisfied with and that". >_< I think since I pay lots of money to study, isn't I must take the one I like? *sigh*

Anyway my point is now I finally decided I will take English in KL although I'm still thinking about studying Multimedia but I only decided it after the intake date so I think why am I rushing myself, if I couldn't make it for 1st Sept I will just take next year since it just few more months to go. I could only made up my mind because this week I'm free from pressure, have time to finally calm down and think deeply. I made up my mind after 1st Sept passed, I will try to go interview for kindergarten and gain some teacher experience though I might not get the job while helping church maybe to translate because these few months are really crucial moments and lots of activities and I'm one of the few who studied English while most other members had Chinese studies and settle some church things. Now in this week, I have finally finished my lessons. Nah then my mom suddenly rush me again enter next week since the intake just began. I also thought ahh 4 months can learn a lot of things and I'm now readied already but my heart also want to help church in these remaining times and learning stuffs. It's not that I don't want to study but it just the matter of starting now or next year. If I go now, will I regret over my decision of leaving and feel guilty? If I settle and complete my tasks in these few months, then I can concentrate on my studies following years. Haha of course u may think now ahh "Siew Gee is so irrational because academic is more important and I should not delay, the church is a bad influence." So I guessed my mom will have this mind setting and I hesitated to tell her. But I have no choice because I don't want to add up her burden of worries anymore so I have to tell her the reason. In the end, whatever she talked just lead to one decision "U're wrong because the church delay your studies." Now the time just coincidentally crash with my intake date. I thought "If my results is good and I have already started my studies earlier, will she or u guys think the church mislead me? U won't right?" Because of this unexpected crashing, u and she mistook it as a bad thing but the main reason is my own failure in managing my decision and time, nothing to do with church. And so coincidently the year ends just nearing. Hmm maybe u disgree with me. All in all, what I want to convey is sometimes the things u witness physically might not be the truth because at times, there're many hidden factors that make up something u see or hear now. *Sigh* What am I gonna do? Siew Han, your new semester begins in October, then November, December and January so u must think the three months will be the period till your ending sem, learn lots of things isn't it? *sigh* One sem one sem one sem...

Stand strong on my own mind and be confident of my choice? I don't want to get influenced by other people and situations but sometimes like mother's opposition, it so hard to get away from it although the last decision is on my own hands. >_< I hope I can stand strong!!!! Yahhhh!!!!

人之初

*Hehe I saw this when I visited Khoo Clinic today. There's a chinese version but my stupid low resolution hp cam not able to catch it and my chinese not so good thus just remember the title. O_O I don't really understand the meaning of chinese title also.

Children Learn What They Live

If children live with criticism,

They learn to condemn.

If children live with hostility,

They learn to fight.

If children live with ridicule,

They learn to feel guilty.

If children live with tolerance,

They learn to be patient.

If children live with encouragement,

They learn confidence.

If children live with praise,

They learn to appreciate.

If children live with fairness,

They learn justice.

If children live with security,

They learn to have faith.

If children live with approval,

They learn to like themselves.

If children live with acceptance and friendship,

They learn to find love in the world.

-Dorothy Law Nolte

Learnt independent..

First of all,i have to thanks my friend making nice blog n wish me during my BIG DAY...THANKS GUY..Urs so sweeT.hehe.Ya,independent,willing to ask,and patient r essentials 4 us when we want to get help from others.We hav 2c lot "faces"..but nevermind patient..at least v gets our goals.Like Chinese ppl saying"wait while sky became big,step backwards all will be fine".I can really understood tis meaning.Yes,whn u r in a unhappy mood juz remember wat i said...U R the best..U r d wonderful human being,v proud wf u..Jia you.Fen will be here.U r d best.

fen...happy birthday oh!!!

21岁的天空
依旧灿烂
依旧有我的陪伴

或许我们无法预知未来
但我们可以把握现在

或许我们不能事事顺心
但我们可以事事尽力

或许我不能帮你解除所有烦恼
但我永远是你最好的听众

生日快乐。。。

加油！加油！

#sorry oh dunno why i cant upload the video but i'ii try again untill success hehe:)

Happy Birthday Fen!!!

Happy 21st Birthday to Fen Fan Fen~
Hehe there's really nothing much to say as I've said all the things I need to say before. But "Anata wa hontouni hontouni totemo totemo yasashi tomodachi ne~" (U are really a gentle and caring friend), no matter in your actions or your spoken words reflect the tenderness of your heart. Hontoni yasashiku desu. Motto motto ishioni gambatte kudasai oh!!! Wish u mainichi mainichi (everyday) shiawase (happy)!!! ^___^ Happy Birthday to u~

Happiness

Today I just coincidentally watched a famous cartoonist featuring in Starface or what TV programme when I were changing channels. :D I always admire artists, creators & writers. Because they have creative imaginations, their ways of thinkings just so unique so I want to share something again here.

The host asked him if he ever have any regrets or unhappy experience and he answered "none". True happiness lies in your heart and not measured by materialistic elements. True happiness is when u feel content or satisfied and "Liberty". Freedom is not you're being locked up or tied with a rope around your body but you're free and have ABILITIES to do whatever u want. If you're happy with yourself, then there won't be any jealousy or enviousness because you're already satisfied with yourself. U feel happy with contentment when u know and sure what u are doing. A person without a dream or living without purpose is just like a butterfly without its pair of wings. Hmm... I ever wondered why we must born and live through world difficulties when at the end mortals just have to die? Why not just being unborn when we knew we will die at the end right? But because we are humans, we don't know what will happen in our future, isn't u kinda excited to find out what will u be or what's there awaiting for you in the world so we continue to live on? Some people afraid to die because they don't want to leave their wealthy assets and names behind. Some are afraid for their afterlife. Most importantly, some people also fear to suffer the separation with their loved ones. I wondered I'm merely an extremely tiny particle in this world, what can I do with my own very hands in this gigantic society? U believe in yourself thus win every challenges with confidence and work hard to achieve your dreams so u won't have any regrets. U could do when u dare to dream. Nothing is impossible when u try your best and keep the faith. "The most rebellious people can be is being themselves." He said people nowadays lack of boldness compared to people last time. A senior said it's a very huge issue when the youngsters nowadays replied "I don't know" when he asked them "What is your dream or ambition or things u want to do?". He then added "Do u know last time we just uttered happily whatever jobs came across our mind although we knew we might not able to become that person?". People nowadays become too afraid not dare to dream because we are too caught up with the environments. "Don't get tied down by your surrounded environment". Ancient people didn't even need money to survive but people nowadays just mourning when they don't have money. I understand the world is evolving fastly non-stop changing everyday but still "Don't become a narrow-minded person stuck in daily problems". I watched "Chit chat of Beautiful Ladies", a Korean TV talk show by ladies from around the globe and they did a survey "What are Korean elementary kids nowadays worry about?" OMG the responses sure make u O_o. Guess what's in their little heads. Those young childrens answered "The politicians always fighting each other, what will happen to Korea in the future?", "We are afraid wars will occur between North Korea & South Korea", "I must study hard now so I can enter great university in the future". Do u think it's healthy for such young students to have similar thoughts with adults? U might think "Wow, what an intelligent students!" but it's more healthy if people think and act according to their ages. In this world, everything as well as people need to compete with each other like animals and plants in order to survive, we may debate it just create tension and stress but if there's no competitions there won't be improvement. (What's in the world is this sentence got anything to do with this topic I also don't know hehe, I just type whatever running through my brain.) What the generations of 21st century need to develop is they gotta become creative and brave to invent something from none to exist. This reminds me of those famous honourable scientists and philosophers like Aristotle, Isaac Newton, Einstein etc etc. Hehe Micky's quote "I chose 0 because 0 means infinity like fashion begins from zero". No matter how big or small your dreams, only your heart knows its importance even others take lightly or look down on u so just follow your heart and u will feel blissful. Sometimes we wonder why a farmer can live happily with laughter everyday when he needs to soak under the scorching sun, it's because he's satisfied with his life. Don't degrade yourself or think you're unworthy because every person has his own specialities.

Happy people are people who know what is true happiness, I mean those who really experienced hardship and remember them always because people who are successful tend to forget their past which make them "who they are today" after they achieve success. But people who truly happy will always learn how to appreciate. Like I said in previous post, people are greedy, never satisfied with what we have. Look at ourselves, we're really lucky, we were born with a complete healthy body. We are really blessed. We have a pair of eyes to see the colors of the world. U will feel devastated when u ever lose your eyesight unable to see the beauty of your loved ones. We have a nice vocal cord attached to our lips that we can voice our heart out even scream for help when you're in danger or frustration. Do you know normal people could cry twice the times of mute people because the healthy one is helping the mute one to cry since the mute one is not able to cry as much? (not sure about its accuracy) What I mean here is not mute people won't cry but did u ever felt like your heart numb before? U feel very upset then u cry till u think that you're dried out your tears. U don't mention your sadness in front of people anymore because you feel like u have moved on. But then the moment u start to talk about your sadness again, the solid heart that hidden inside which u thought harden already open its wound again, the moistured clear liquid rolling down your cheeks unconciously once again. If you keep silence, your heart might keep bleeding without soul but if you voice it out, your heart become alive again. We have a pair of ears to listen to the beauty of music and the voices of your loved ones. We have a pair of hands so we can touch people and reach things. We have a pair of legs that we can walk and run freely to where ever we want to go. We are middle class people that we have place to live, food to eat, water to drink, education to study, not really undergo difficulties in life. But people won't realize these blessings until they lose them and some even misuse them. Normal healthy people will begin to complain their unfortunates when they lost a part of their body and blame others but have u ever think how those born handicapped, mute, deaf or blind ever feel like that they didn't even have the chance to have a taste of what we have? Lucky people simply throw away unfinished food. Think about undernourished children and adults in Africa before u leave behind your unwanted food. We live in tropical country where rain and water always available so water just being wasted or treated like a useless trash in every seconds but do you know water is like gold oasis in drought desert middle east countries such as Egypt? Yet we still desire for other things. "People need to spend more to earn more." Haha when u have lovely family, u wish to score flying colours in exams, then u hope for being popular among friends, not enough u then climb to the top ladder in your career, u have all the neccesities in your life like house shelter, clothes and money, later on u crave for love from others having relationship, bragging about your rich partners and the list just goes on bla bla bla. If your wild heart never stop reaching higher and higher, u won't feel happy even u have already achieve everything which seems like a successful life in others' eyes. "Simple minded people is more happy and live longer than those who always worry about unnecessary stuffs." "Ignorance is blissful." (This can be a good as well as bad phrase depends on circumstances.) Hmm... whatever, frankly speaking, people is pursuing spiritual happiness instead of materials where u create an equal balance between your dream interests and love relationships plus life neccessities.

He also said that a hunter can't catch two rabbits in the same time or else he sure will fail to catch any at the end. "End whatever u have started". Future is unpredictable so might as well just focus all your attention on one thing till u finish. If u don't take a relationship seriously or decided to two-timing your partner, u will not only hurt yourself but also your partners. If you do your job without putting your 100% effort, u won't able to produce excellent result make you perform poorly in your work. Take Japan ethnics for instance, the "specialization in every working departments" to ensure employers work effectively and increase the productions. "People choose to study in a field not to obtain the certificate but hope to sharpen their skills and potentials to become a better talent in one particular area."

People who suffer the most like living in hell are people who can't find themselves, can't determine discreetly about their likes and dislikes, indesicive all the time. Therefore wasting lots of time and regrets after losing what they're suppose to gain. So it is really fortunate for those who know and clear what they want to do no matter how light or heavy your dreams are, some realize it since young, some discover it during the middle of "growing up" and some are just so sad never really realize it and just live on their lives in bluriness till they die. Struggling in weighing which one will be my route of happiness, I wish I'll be released from this pain and know what I want to be. I'm so upset that I myself don't even understand myself, "My dear heart, please don't turn away from me." Yosh Fighting!!!

"Creatures are not born with desires unless satisfaction for those desires exists. A baby feels hunger; well there is such a thing as food; a duckling wants to swim; well there is such a thing as water, etc. If I find myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
— C.S. Lewis

Always Keep The Faith II

TVXQ’s Official Press Conference

TVXQ make an official statement

It’s time to clear the air of this whole debacle.

A lot of speculation and panic erupted after the news of Kim Jun-su, Kim Jae-joong, and Park Yoo-chun of TVXQ filing a provision disposition to terminate the exclusive right effects on their contract with SM Entertainment on July 31st (the injunction application they submitted against SM). Within the past three days, Cassiopeians have been counting their lucky stars that their precious TVXQ will not disband due to this matter. Well, three days is long enough, so on August 3rd, the three members released an official press release through Se-jong addressing everyone’s fears and clarifying any discrepancies speculated by the press (Xiah, Hero, Micky Yoochun represented by SEJONG law firm revealed their official position).

So it doesn’t lead to any final result of the case, yet.

Just an additional information, no surprise, SM stock price is highly declined due to this case. Today’s official position is the opportunity of SM to gain their stock price back in track, yet I don’t see it will happen soon, to see how’s the official position of the members written..........................Three TVXQ members’ Official Position “We don’t not get proper treatment,”

1. During the five years after their debut, the three members were getting really tired mentally and physically because of the one-sided schedule of company.

Xiah, Hero, and Micky are the members of group TVXQ, and they made debut in 2004. They had to travel to Korea, Japan, and China, and perform their schedules by sleeping only 3~4 hours a day, except one week in a year based on their management company, SM’s instructions. Their mental and physical health conditions were getting worse due to the exhausting schedules, but SM tried to enter them into the market abroad and made unreasonable one-sided schedules. Finally, the three members realized that they cannot achieve what they want as artists in SM, as they would be used as just tools to make profit of SM.

2. The period of 13 years actually means whole life contract.

According to their contract, the contract period is 13 years, which would amount to more than 15 years, as the thirteen years do not apply to the time in compulsory military service. That means there is more than 10 years remaining on their current contract, which would essentially mean until their retirement. Also if they break the contract, they would be required to pay more than three times the total investment, or two times the lost profit. Even under the possibility of canceling the contract with the mutual agreement of SM, TVXQ would be required to pay the penalty. In other words, it was actually be impossible to break the contract due to the millions of won involved, so they have no choice but to stay with SM.

3. The members never got the appropriate level of treatment for the amount of effort that they put in.

Not only did the members not receive a deposit since the terms of the exclusive contract forbids the distribution of revenue records.; according to the initial contract(unrevised) for album profit allotment, only when an album sold 500,000 copies, could they get 1/1000 of the sales per member, and when albums sold less than 500,000 copies, the members won’t receive even a single penny of revenue allocation or earnings. This was changed on February 6, 2009, yet the amount of money the members receive from the albums is still only 0.4%~1% per person, depending on the album sales.

4. The members requested changes to inappropriate contract points several times, but SM did not care.

In this situation, the three members requested revision be made on their current inappropriate contract several times, but SM focuses on the concern over their cosmetic line business that completely sidesteps the core of the issue. Nevertheless, the three members wish to find a way to smooth over the problem by requesting a conversation with SM, but SM did not answer it. Also, based on the attitude they showed us, they have realized they cannot solve this problem by simply settling in a conference, and finally decided to take legal action.

5. The cosmetic line investment is not related to their entertainment activities, nor does it have anything to do with this situation. The true essence of this situation would be the inappropriate contract.

SM made a public announcement that the members made provisional disposition due to the cosmetic line investment, but the investment has nothing with this situation. The cosmetic line investment that SM is referring to is the investment the three members made when they were entering the market in China, and it is a financial investment that has no correlation with their entertainment activities. It does not make any sense that the members would make a provisional disposition and put everything they achieved as TVXQ at stake just to invest 100 thousand dollars in a beauty line. The main concern that the members want to focus on is their inappropriate contract terms, and SM should cease using their beauty line investment to distract from the central issue.

(no need futher explanation. SM just insists to point out cosmetic companies investment as the core problem, but they stressed here again, that it’s not the case. The three members are only one of shareholders and not even the high officials of the cosmetic companies (Crebeau). Their lawsuit is purely only to resolve the unfair exlusive contract.)

6. The members do not want to disband TVXQ and just want to free themselves from unreasonable contract restraints.

Many fans are worried about the possible disbanding of TVXQ due to this situation. However, making this provisional disposition does not signal the end of TVXQ. Now, three members are participating in the lawsuit due to a difference of ideas regarding how to approach this situation, but there is no problem between the members. Nothing has changed and they wish to keep the promise they made to their fans that they would stay united as one. If this situation is resolved according and the unreasonable clauses are lifted from their contract, they will be free to be one in front of their fans.

7. We think of this as another chance to mature.

We are sorry to the fans that care about TVXQ so much who may be shocked and dismayed with our actions, but if you think of this as just another chance for us to expand as artists and maintain you support in us, we will promise to compensate you with a more mature TVXQ.

P.S: This fandom is like a drug but in the process I learn and gain so many things from it. It's like a dopamine or endophine for me, instantly brighten up my day. It's not merely watching idol group performing but also if u will see closely, u will realize the beauty of passion, people, life, cross-cultures, talents, skills, teamwork, friendship, brotherhood etc etc. Do u know that a good music not only consisted of true talents and good vocal cord? If u have the true talents but not skills to improve and manipulate your style, good team of staffs, good composers, good choreographers, u won't able to deliver the perfect performance, meaning bringing the maximum satisfaction to audiences. They're the 1st ones who opened my eyes that live is so lot better than songs recorded in CD. They just make me falling over & over for them. I can't describe how I adore and envy them in brief. They of course not flawless since they're humans but they might be the most beautiful people I've ever seen, not only in terms of physical looks but personalities. Just love them for who they are. Famous artists become the natural ambassadors for their country, a huge source of economic contributor and spread the country name and cultures through the fans. This also make me appreciate more of internet and think it's the most amazing human creation which connect and share informations globally in the same time. U might not understand or think I'm crazy but I don't care and if i start my compliments for them, there will be endless of this post so I just zip my mouth for now. I ask myself if this obession will ever ended or is it just a phase, I don't know but I hope it lasts till the end. "ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH. MY HERO, MY MAX, MY UKNOW, MY XIAH & I'M MICKY, WE ARE THE ONE ETERNALLY". Huhu micheoseo~

Always Keep The Faith I

Ok I know this has nothing to do with all of u, u might know the details from recent medias already but 1st August 2009, the news just dropped like a bomb. I'm sure each fans included me, heart dwelling in worries and inside me, it just keeps unsettled trembling like ocean wave and I need to shout it out. All cassies couldn't do anything but to believe in them as Yoochun said "Always Keep The Faith". Although we believe that disbandament won't happen as it's assured by the members but still we're afraid that they'll change after this if departure from SM is inevitable. Anyway, they're currently still continuing their scheduled activities in Japan, summer performances in A-nation. It's such a relief to see them again. They have special entrance "through the fans" to the front stage covered by parade of black cloths at sides.

So the following will explain the situation of DBSK;

The future of idol group DBSK is uncertain. DBSK's 3 members (Micky YooChun, Xiah Junsu, Youngwoong Jaejoong) and SM's trouble is too deep. Although they state that there will be no disbandment, in reality, disbandment is more than likely. Even if they avoid the worst case scenario, disbandment, it feels like their departure of SM is set.

On the third, a acquaintance of the 3 members said, "settlement with SM has been tried multiple times. But their differences couldn't be settled. The reason this went to court is because they couldn't find a point to settle." Thus, they concluded that more attempts for negotiations was useless.

The acquaintance that the reporter met is someone who has watched over DBSK very closely. He has experienced all ups and downs since debut until now. According to him, DBSK advocated for only one thing. They wanted conditions of the contract to be eased. However, it has gotten to a point where the conversations between the two parties have gone nowhere.

He stated, "they asked for the contract term and earnings distribution to be revised because everyone could tell it was irrational. They attempted to negotiate until the end but they felt that SM was avoiding them. Therefore, things got emotional for both parties and the 3 members are even more angry with SM's response."

"The truth about the 3 things that SM distorted."

After the initial reports about this incident, SM sent documents on the 1st and the 3rd. On the first, they reported that this problem was due to the makeup company investment and they will work it out. After the contract conditions were reported, they responded that members were paid 11 billion Won and were given foreign cars as presents (u can find fancams of Yoochun's Audi R8 in Youtube).

In response to this, he stated, "the nature of this instance is the unfair contract, not the make up company. However, SM has not mentioned the contract conditions and have continued to use make up company issues to play with the media."

Additionally, he discussed about the 11 billion Won. He said, "let's say SM is right and that they were paid 11 billion won for the 6 years of work. This is the pre-tax profit. After taxes were paid, and this amount is divided by 6 years, and 5 members, this is less than 200 million won per member. For the first half of this year, the profits from album sales in Japan is 2.5 billion Yen (33 billion won). However, DBSK doesn't even receive 200 million won per year."

The total number of albums released in and outside of Korea is 48. Out of these, including singles and full albums, 1.96 million copies were sold in Korea. In Japan for 4 full albums and 27 singles, 8 of those sold over 100,000 copies, and one sold over 250,000 copies. Including south-east Asia, at least 4 million albums were sold.

He also criticized abnormal methods of calculating methods. According to him, "SM requested money for back dancers and food. Basically, almost all of the expenses were paid for by DBSK." He added, "besides this, SM created a local subsidiary and divided the earnings of DBSK into pieces. For example, SM Japan and Avex divided earnings, and this was also divided with Korean SM. With complex divisions, the money for the members were reduced.

Also, he stated that the foreign cars were given to them under the company's name. "They received cars from SM after an award ceremony. However, the cars were registered in SM's name and is not owned by DBSK."

"The three members are as tired as they can get."

According to this acquaintance, the three members of DBSK are tired of SM's play with the press. They have no intention to solve this with mere words, and are extremely upset that SM is exaggerating only one side of the story, distorting the truth. He said, "they expected SM to twist words with the press but didn't realize it would be to this extent. If SM continues this method, I think it would be nearly impossible to work together with SM again. I suspect that they will part with SM and try to find a different solution to settle this.

Their departure from SM does not mean the disbandment of DBSK. He asserts that there is no problems in relationships between all the members. They are still like family and agree that in any situations, they must work together. He said, "Truthfully, all five had the same intentions. But in the process of negotiations, there was differences between the members. That is why only 3 members decided to fight with their company. They all agree that the contract conditions are irrational, it is just that their way of handling it is different."

"DBSK will continue even after departure with SM"

Micky YooChun, Xiah Junsu, Youngwoong Jaejoong's will is stronger than ever. The acquittance reported that, "the 3 members are showing stronger wills than before debut. The three members are determined to stick together no matter what hardships come their way."

They are also determined to get back together as 5 members under the name DBSK. He revealed, "even if the 3 members leave SM through lawsuit, this only means departure from SM. This does NOT mean the disbandment of DBSK. It may be after the 2 remaining members leave, or if they perform from 2 different companies; the 5 want to continue with DBSK."

Well then, if 3 members leave SM, would they still be able to use the name 'DBSK.' Upon researching in the Industrial Property Office, the group name 'DBSK' is not registered. SM registered for DBSK trademark in 2004 but was denied. In other words, SM does NOT have the right to the name 'DBSK.'

According to a 'Mansung' Patent Law Firm Office, the patent attorney Hwang Sung Pil said, "Dong Bang means East and one cannot assert exclusive right to use it. Most likely, this was probably the reason why the application was denied 2004. SM cannot assert any trademark rights to the name. If the 5 members are together even away from SM, they will have no problems using the name."

More than anything, DBSK feels extremely sorry to their fans. This is why they want to go through with performances that were already scheduled. The acquaintance reported, "if they lose the lawsuit, they may have to pay an extreme amount of money for penalty. More than that, they are going through hard times thinking that they will have to be away from their fans while the lawsuit is in process."

Siew Han's Birthday Celebration

The night was beautiful tonight. It's not a full moon but it's so bright that it illuminated the whole dark sky simply added wonders to the already amazing scene together with those 3 massive rays of spot light from nearby mini no-customer amusement park hehe. It's windy despite the weather was hot as fire during the day plus hazy recently.

It's the 1st time everything went on slowly, naturally without any fuss though it might seems quite a rush. The 1st time I need no worry about contacting everyone to inform or asking for informations so to confirm that everything running smoothly. This time, one call and everything just settled. Ms.Lee called yesterday midnight to hold a sudden gathering. Today, I went to Ipoh and didn't have any idea if I have transport readied or not at night and we hope it's available. 7pm only I almost reached my home and knew my dad left the car unoccupied. I seems in such a hurry but my mind so peaceful. Haha Ms.Lee suggested steamboat before but then she's having dinner with her family so I wondered if her stomach could be abused to stuff more food? The clock showed 7.40pm, I thought I need to eat but I didn't feel like letting food entered my kinda full tummy so I just quickly refilled my water bottle and set off to fetch my 1st passenger ^^.

I received sms from Ms.Lee said I need no fetch her but Ms.Lam and also two villagers in Temoh hehe. I guessed I just scanned through the previous sms regarding Ms.Cheng's departure to her "boring" academic house tomorrow morning and didn't read the msg properly. That's what happened when I always like to read sms so fast, missing or misunderstood some points here and there. Upon my arrival, I called Ms.Cheng to tell here to come out but it's the 1st time she didn't pick up my ring. Thus I started to doubt OMG was she still in hometown as I recalled back she said she would only enjoy her one week "fake" holidays in Kampar and crawl back to KL the following week, I asked Ms.Lee but no response and finally I called Ms.Low but she answered me "I don't know". Haha 1st time everything didn't planned out but still the event continued successfully.

The little party was simple enough with couples of drinks ordered on table and a small tiramisu cake. The breeze kept blowing out the lit candles and we tried so hard to protect those 3 flickered dancing fire from dying out with our palms hehe. Some very epic old movie played on big projector made us laughed. In the middle, a new shop "Ink" caught our eyes. After finishing our birthday business, we dragged our feet to take a nearer look into the new shop but decided to stop before we stepped in when we discovered it's actually a tattoo shop. Holy smoke, TATTOO shop in tiny laid back Kampar?!!! Hahahaha.

Later on, we changed the venue moved to Westlake. Hehehe it's fun having relaxing chit-chats while moving our bodies casually according to the dull beats blaring from nearby car stereo booms. Ohh in case u wanna know when u guys asked me where I learnt the "laughing yoga" and two other silly yoga moves, I watched them in one of Tohoshinki's latest Japanese TV show hehe. I really like us to try out the "laughing yoga" when there's no scrutinizing stares around us XDDD and make some crazy laughter together next time. It soon ended aproximately 11pm something without one member present but still a delightful memories we created together.

Somehow, today felt kinda bittersweet. The meeting was such a joy but the parting kinda made me felt heavy to let go, I will miss u guys. :( Radio kept displaying sentimental songs just didn't help to ease the feeling during the journey back homes.

Till next time, see you guys. It's now 3 more hours to dawn and I got my one side of dark circled eyes patched on with eyes mask because the processor company of the product forgot to put in a pair of eyes patches inside the packet -_- what a shame... Goodnight for now~ Adious my dear amigas~

P.S: I only chose the best photos to upload and I have to edit and remove them due to the blurriness and darkness, and so much "noice" in the pictures. D: Why didn't use flash? Hmm... nevermind maybe if we used flash, the effects might be different now. Sorry oh my home no photoshop so I just used photobucket to fix those pics, not so vivid...

21岁了。。。生日快乐！！

我的21岁正式到来了。。。

21岁的生日，是进入大学的第一个生日，是踏上中文系这条不归路后的第一个生日，也是第一个在部落格上留言的生日。

21岁的生日感觉上是一个很重要的日子，是迈入成年的象征，要宣告我长大了。。我真的长大了吗？？这个21岁对我来说仍然是一片迷惘，总觉得自己依旧停留在高中的阶段，是我的内心抗拒成长？还是我对自己的未来毫无信心？无论如何，我会努力的寻找我的人生目标，继续勇往前进。。。


朋友们，谢谢你们一直陪伴着我，给于我鼓励与支持，你们的祝福我都收到了。。。谢谢！！

Cute Ver. LSH Birthday Post

Happy Birthday LSH!!!

Happy 21st Birthday Siew Han!!!

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생일 축하 합니다

사랑하는 Siew Han~ Xian~ Hyo Seon~ Ms.Low~ ^^

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Hehe I know it's fanmade video for Jaejong's birthday and I don't know if u've watched it before or not but I wanna dedicate it to u since he's your favourite member and I like this video so much that I cried when I watched it. ;D THEY inspire people in every possible ways. Just looking at them, we understand why the fans would crazy, cry and scream when watching them because I myself also so obsess that when THEY cry I cry and THEY laugh I laugh together and Cassiopeia are the most awesome fans in the world. With the background song "Hero by Mariah Carey", just like themselves and the lyrics of the music, I would like to share their strength with u ^^. Hwaiting!!! Jia You!!! I really feel gratitude for your continuous support for me during my hard time that it means alot to me that u ever imagined. Kamsahamnida.

Hehe birthday message section again. I'm so excited patiently waiting for this day haha XDDD. Fate mentioned in the video more like "Destiny" and Fate u once posted is Fate haha. Every language is so unique especially Chinese that it's so difficult or have any other suitable words to describe or replace one character. Hmm... Fate oh... is such a miracle like u said. There's no fate as declared by Hero because u might change the world if u work hard and keep the faith till the end. But, sometimes it seems like the Fate exists too hehe. Like last year when I drove to your house just to drop by your present and u wondered why so early since it still got 3 days until the official day. Hehe but lucky I done it earlier because on exactly 3rd August 08' my dad used the car so isn't it like a Fate?

Another fate will be our story :). Hmm... well fate destined us to meet each other but timing plays a very important role as Ms.Cheng always says right timing brings us together. We practically knew each other since Form 1 or rather u knew me but I don't know u. I'm so sorry because I'm not really a social person. Even we finally ended up in the same class but I didn't really "noticed" about u that I didn't make any initial approach to really "get to know u personally". U just like another invisible person who "passed by" in my life back then. But miracle just happened!!! Who knows that someone who once walked in and uneventfully walked out of my life could somehow unexpectedly now become someone whom I hold dear to my heart, gained a place in my tiny heart along with my other best friends. I'm so glad that I get to know u and realize what a wonderful person u're. I'm just saying that I'm happy to have u as friend. Thank you for being my chingu.

Haha nothing much to say since I've said everything during my previous posts. Repeating things over & over again will makes u feel bored hehe. Happy Birthday again to our birthday girl!!!

Never Alone

Hi everyone. Me again -_- hehe. Tada actually I don't know if I should post this or not because it seems like my muse to write just fade away day by day and there's nothing much to say but then I still do it to increase the number of post :). And I just want the contents in this post out of my head so my mind can be empty again like recycle bin :D. If u ever notice, my posts often cramped myriad of ideas under one topic thanks to my damn wild imagination so that's why my every post so long. As a result, I sometimes need longer time to settle and rearrange those jumbled thoughts so I won't lose track during middle of writing. :( But I failed all the time because when I keep writing, new words or ideas continue to pop up.

I really like to read and jot down everything which my tiny brain decided to suddenly pick them up so I won't forget them. Oops one problem though, my notes are so messy since I'm like "ohh empty space then I just write down there". In the end, the whole paper will be full of "scratchy chicken marks". D: I'm really a forgetful person because at this minute I'm doing or talking this, the next second I can totally forget what I've been doing just now. Maybe also sometimes I do something spontaneously like an autopilot or I don't really pay attention to it so I tend to be forgetful. But then recording can be a bad habit too because I'll always depend on the notes and not memories to remember... OMG what if I get dementia faster when I grow older O_o.

People are never alone because people can never survive alone. People might alone mentally but never literally physically alone because people born in society. Even there is no one beside u but u are always living surrounded by lives. U working dealing with coleagues and public communities, see the doctor when u are sick, eating food from grocery stores, markets and farmers, entertaining yourself with people productions and inventions like tv, computer, books, etc etc. Ok u might argue that u are alone if u live in rural area or deserted island by yourself like Robinson Crusoe but still when u're born, u are raised by your parents or guardians. Therefore, "Think before u act" as your actions not only affect yourself but also people around u. Take care of yourself because your body not belong solely yourself, if u involved in accident and injured or get sick due to your own incapability in health management, have u think how worry people who love u will feel? Do u ever think u can survive left in a forest raised by wild animals like in Jungle book? I guess not. Human interaction is so vital that people have to blend in well into society by adapting ourselves. If so so happen, there's still someone up there watching over us. "People who done evil will get bad karma". People always say "He/She will always live in their heart although the person no longer there" yet people still engulfed by loneliness because people live physically with own body flesh. People tend to believe in physical figures. Sometimes our mind might have forgot it but our body still hold the memories like pleasures, smells. 1st time u smell a perfume, the fragrance stimulates your senses and it absolutely smells nice but the 2nd time u do it again, your brain auto recognize the smell and the pleasant smell might decreases as your body already adapted to the smell. Your body itself know what is good and what is bad for its own, autoreflex. I guess that's may be the reason why a hug can be the best comfort when people upset. People craving for physical body heat as well as spiritual satisfaction just like why people must make love when they're in a relationship. Hmm... people might think as long as in love, there's no need intercourse but sometimes isn't it kinda a symbol of trust because u only "make love" or readily willingly give yourself to others when u really trust or comfort with that person? Take note, I'm saying "making love" which involves love and not just "sex". >_< What I'm saying might be wrong, don't take it seriously because I don't want to mislead people to wrong path.

To love and to be loved is the most wonderful thing in the world. Only Mutual feelings from the right person and right things will lead to happiness. For examples, the person u confess to return your feeling then a new love relationship blooming and u feel blissful for it. U only work something you like to do, then your job performed efficiently and u get promoted, isn't it like u love your job and your job loves u back.

I feel sorry for those old citizens. Watching your grandparents or parents, because they are older so u sometimes will think they got more experience, they're grown ups can take care of themselves, they're parents so they won't mind and always forgive. We just take whatever we are granted, just like parents' love and kinship. It always there so u don't ever feel the need to work hard to earn it. I don't think it won't the same as how u treat your friend. This concept makes me automatically forget that they're human too like us, they once live like a child too going through life cycle and they need love and attentions just like us but we youngsters always neglect them. "A child can never care for their parents like a mother does." I feel bad and pity especially those who gonna live throughout their other half life after their life partner passed away. Old age prohibits them from moving freely, how lonely when they have to stop what they like to do and they don't have more people to talk to when their old friends become deceased one after another. How devastated when they only left their own blood and flesh don't even want to communicate with them and left them alone. There's nothing I can help but hope they don't have any regrets and able to leave peacefully when the time comes.

Warning: I don't know if I should write this out or not because I don't like people to change themselves because of my own selfish opinions since parts of it are myself to blame or it could be all my own fault alone. And it will be kinda depressing so if u don't want to be emo or maybe u won't be influenced by my dark feelings, I advise u should stop scrolling down right now. If u decided to continue reading and u happen to discover something in the middle, just treat it as something totally unrelated to u or some fake fiction, don't take it to your heart at all. Don't go trouble your precious limited brain cells with what I've written as my hands just itchy to type. If u ever wonder why sometimes I always complain but I never spit it in front of certain people, I've stated my reasons on the 1st line of my warning. Some things are better left unsaid. What u read here will end in this post. OK? *pinky promise* ^^ Remember NO HARD FEELING after this. Sorry if my honesty and bluntness will might... u know, think less or different of me, damage your illusions of me... well this just officially further proclaim myself as negative person, pesismistic, emo, or watever names u wanna call me since u all knew I'm such a gloomy emotional wreck already. I've wanted to shout out my deepest core since long ago but I didn't have the heart to bring this out to light or call me a coward for hiding. :D Later on I swear there won't be any negative post like this ever again so don't worry u need no strain your eyes to read some complete nonsence again. When I can't be honest with other people, at least I hope I can be honest with u guys.

What will u feel if someone frequently tell u that u are her bestie and so important to her when she never even make an effort to remember your birthday? I believe that if u really care about someone, u will take notice about tiny details. Haha am I sound like a timid person? It's understandable if forgotten occasionally but she never even once greeted me. It's not that I mind if friends forget about the day I'm born because my family doesn't fond of celebrating this event and it often being forgotten since it always happens around the corner of holidays or CNY and sometimes I forget it myself too. Due to that reason, I never really received any birthday present till I get grow older. As a result I sometimes get scolded for forgetting my own birthday by an long old friend who seems always to be the 1st who wish me every year although we might not be as close so I'm very grateful to her. ^^ Gomawo chingu though she won't read this post.

What will u feel if one of your best friends forget to call your name when you're both apart of the organiser of an event and she's announcing the list member of commitee? Well not a really big deal for u right? ^^ I'm such a narrow minded person again to u right? I don't think I would care much about it if it's other person who did the emcee job but she's one of my best friends. Only my ears heard my own heart cracking that night. Haha who can I blame since it's none of her fault that I'm such an non-existant person in her eyes but myself right? She even shunned me aside during some game activity so obviously that I rather she just talked to my face instead of tossed me to this group then to another group. She's a friend whom good to talk distantly but hanging out is once in a blue moon.

What will u feel if one of your best friends declares that u are her best buddy when her mind claim u as best friend but her heart seems fail to recognise u as best bosom? This wild free spirited butterfly seems doesn't know that she always hurt me unintentionally lots of time while she's either just so full of herself or she just notice about others but not me ^^. Or because I remain the same, so she think I'm always here when she simply walk in and walk out as she likes? Insecurities just happen if something always changing, like u feel the urge urgently to buy clothes when there's megasales because u afraid it will be sold out if it's too late. She doesn't even cherish my belongings, no matter it's something petty or important, u should always be considerate and careful with it since it's not your possession or am I wrong? Maybe she just treat me so lightly unawarely, so I said her mind seems to feeding her info that I'm her best friend but her heart fails to recognise me. Because the repetitious disappointment and betrayals, her words no longer able to reach my heart when her promises are meant to be broken that at one point, I would rather completely cut off the string. But fate just like to play around and the ties didn't broke loose but keep holding on become stable abit again but if 2nd time comes again, I don't think I would be hesitant to let her goes forever. Alright maybe it's my own problem again :)since it just me who encounter issue with her. I didn't hate her because hate is a big word and my heart wouldn't glad to burden itself with such a stupid bad feeling. Thank God we can remain as good friends.

What will u feel if one of your best friends abandon or neglect u when she found others? Hmm I don't blame her because partly was my fault when I left her alone 1st but it's also her hobby to always fly to others when she meets someone new ^^. I'm so used to it already so I don't care anymore if she decides to stay beside me or not. Somehow she might be the most innocent and honest friend that she's so dedicated to be the 1st who made me handmade gift. Therefore I felt gratitude to her too.

Despite the crowds surround me, I always feel lonely because of my personality. I'm not really the most friendly and cheerful person so I don't think people enjoy much to befriend me. I need time to warm up to new people unless "strangers" try to approach me 1st or else I can really remain as statue log freeze to a spot. I think my inconfidence built since I'm a child. Close friends knew I'm a kid in big family. Due to many siblings, my eldest brother and both my sisters were sent to be babysat by my relatives while me and younger brothers grew up under my own parents' hands. Therefore my older siblings are closer to my relatives and I'm never close to them at all till now. It bothers me so much last time but as I grow older I don't bother about it anymore ^^. Even my own older sisters, I'm only accepted into their group after I hit my puberty so u can say I'm quite distant with them. Well, u can say I still got my parents, grandparents and younger brothers but it's never enough, u know children like to get accepted by peers. So the only people I could pour my feeling to was my closest friend but still not all understand. I felt isolated and unwanted. "It felt so close yet so far". Now, everything become less awkward and we just like close normal brothers and sisters but the shadow still remains there. I even scared to touch my relatives' babies since I'm not close to them which my sisters could do it so carefree.

Hmm... the loneliness also occured because all my friends are such popular people? Haha I'm always torn apart because my closest friends can be divided to several groups. Like that I'm being tossed like a ball when some of these friends like to assume I got other group of friend to join and then just left me alone. People also like to ask "hey How your best friend?" when they knew I'm also close to them. Regarding some circumstances, I often said I don't have "best friend" but only "good friends" or best friendS because these friends some like to come close and at other time like to walk away, I'm not convinced anymore if they think me as best friend or not, so everyone is equal. *sigh* What to do? Why can't all friends just join together? Once a friend asked me that why my another friend couldn't join "us", why must separate time meeting? It's because I knew she will be left out of the group's conversation, this situation even happen to friends in one same group so what makes u think that it will work just fine when an "alien" join your group? Thus I really hate it when a group of friends each go their own ways during vacation trip, if like that why organize small group trip? Why not just go separately from the beginning right? If it gonna end like that, I rather go alone with another friend or two instead of a bunch according to the phrase "The more the merrier". Indeed it is true the more the merrier but if these bunch are strangers to each other, do u think u can enjoy yourselves to the fullest? Travelling with partners is hoping that u have companion to share your joyful experience because happiness is meant to be shared. Maybe u will disagree *shrugs*. So when "he" confessed he's so lonely in front of "us", I really felt empathy to him and always remember to drag him to our conversation so he felt less alone. U know how it feels when loneliness becomes unbearable... it suffocated me that I have no where to turn to but only drowning in my own interests.

Anyway, all these don't matter anymore because they're all in the past now and the dull heartaches have faded away following the time. I just want to let it all out and move on. I'm glad we all still remain as close as possible right now. I'm sorry to those if I ever misunderstood their feelings for I know I might not be a really good friend too. I'm thankful to those who become my newly developed close friends these few years back. I just hope I can be bold during the next time I meet someone interesting and ask them "Can I join u?"

-_- Is this depressing? Come come closer and let me help u flush your head in toilet so u can erase all u have read just now or lately it has been raining daily, go soak yourself under the fresh droplets of cloud hehe.